I just recently celebrated my 23rd birthday this past Monday & as of lately, I’ve been doing a lot of thinking. Maybe its because of recent events in which I won’t divulge in because they’re somewhat more personal than what I’m willing to share but I’ve definitely been thinking.
My birthday last year was celebrated in Chicago & that had to have been one of my favorite birthdays. It was pretty much the beginning of a relationship I never once believed I would have. Cheesy as it may sound, but I’m talking about the Sisterhood I’ve gained since then. They’ve been there through my ups & downs and I’m glad I had made the decision to go Greek.
My 22nd year was a challenging one, exposing me to situations that I never had been in or that I never thought would’ve happened. I questioned one of my stronger relationships. I made decisions that were out of character. I became carefree and selfish.. but I believe it was all because I “grew up” too quickly. Some people forget how young I actually am. People’s expectations of me choked me and I think it was at that moment I began to question everything. I questioned my relationships, what truly made me happy, my future, and whom I really was..
Everyone has their own perception of who someone is and I think a few had perceived me to be “perfect” in their own eyes. I’m far from perfect. I’m allowed to make mistakes and learn from them. If it weren’t for all my past experiences (good & bad), I wouldn’t be who I am today. However, its tough to say that certain mistakes were actually mistakes. Is it a mistake to indulge in what made me happy for that time being? Not sure, but I’m definitely dealing with those consequences now.
Aside from all that personal drama, this past year has been such a memorable one and it has strengthen me for what is to come next. My undergraduate career is nearly over and another chapter of my life is about to begin. I can’t wait for everything that is to come!
And as a treat for you sitting through my birthday rant, here are a few photos from my past year 🙂